Kyoto, Kansai, Japan
learning to be independent.

Monday, April 24, 2006

in the mood for...



love? lust? or simply just company? whatever that was suppose to be about, im lost. my curiosity lingers, but im in no hurry to find out. i believe i know the answer though i could be wrong. im on the way to feeling the same way, except i choose to not. mutual feelings? not quite there yet, anxiety attacks? i doubt it sweetheart, screwed in the head? hey.. how'd u know?
i know its all about regrets, i cant say i have none, but atleast they're not about you. i choose to come clean, and its me i'm helping, not you. then again, why would you care? why should it matter? the fact that im speaking of this matter n spilling my guts out is purely fucked up, though who's to judge but myself. i enjoy it day n night, black to white, hell even the greys inbetween. call me two-faced, tell me you're not. after all, reality kicks in tis only another 7 months. untangle my riddle, don't. you're irrelevant, u rekon? slowly i taste your fear, explain? don't bother. it shall not happen, or should it? fuck how should i know? my choice, your problem.

(april exclusively, the morning belongs to the night.)

Saturday, April 22, 2006

it all started last wednesday...


so people have been asking where i've been, what did i get up to, sniffing here n there for dirt like the sun's gon rise from the other side if i didn't get myself into some sorta trouble. surprise surprise, i didn't get myself into any trouble, coz i was never caught u see!! time flies when you do just about everything and or nothing. my teacher taught me that procrastination is ofcourse a con, but relaxing and to let your body & mind take a break/rest, also plays an important part. well i took his word, for word, and since its easter break i got down and serious to relaxing as soon as i was outta his lecture, but i think we took it one step too far, coz woah! i have to admit its been awhile since eyes open eyes shut, its all smokin'... its as if i lived on a freakin pot farm, burning em non-stop on campfire!! (except for the fact that my endless supply is about a mile to my left in some bogans backyard) other than that, we did make some break throughs, got our hands on a few new gadgets, and came to a few conclusions. but right now our number one new gadget is our 11cm king size made in spain rolling machine, which although it wasn't top-notch like i imagined, and on top of that mr parrot totally robbed me clean, but our long lasting giggling made up for it definitely. never the less even with the change, i don't leave my wounded men behind so old phrase, it will all depend on our mood and venue. (meaning i won't be abandoning my pimpi, he's jumped on the ride and he's going all the way). gradually our collection is growing as we maximize our 'experience' and so like every other session, we play, we eat, we do all that n then we sleep n we forget. the next day we wake up we untangle our happenings n try to remember, we puff in between, and we're back to more giggling haha our accomplishment of the week... i'd have to say was we got to catch up on some movies, our long awaited V for vendetta, scary movie 4 (fujitsu, mitsubishi, bonsai).... and... wait let me think... underworld evolution, screwed, failure to launch, she's da man (i was way too stoned!) and some other dvd we rent from blockbuster, called... i don't even remember the name, and that been said, or the movie, last but not least we finally watched PRISON BREAK!! (we went through it in one long hard working night!!) and it aint over yet! theres more diggin to come. to be continued...

(wentworth miller, you're totally worth the wait)

Monday, April 10, 2006

IYAM wat IYAM coz i love yam.



somewhat foolish, partly true. while i was having a cigarette listening to bebel gilberto it was all sinking in, pure bliss. as the color of leaves change, this is the last of me i leave behind. from now on, its all under my skin, i hide, i tremble, i learn.

(get out, got out, soon i'll be in again)

fuking sweet


no chocolate or lollie could compare to this sweet sweet feeling. the relief of 'fuck its done!! finito, no more!! OVER!!' WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *rolling around-screaming-jump off my balcony* ok now it's time to start my next assignment.

(someone explain to me, why my feets so cold)