fruits galore my ass

im simply getting things out of my system, pls ignore.

some ppl eat bannanas.. others have it stuck up their asses... no big deal. we all have our shit days. but today i experienced communicating with someone who has a durian stuck up his ass!!

to that person: as if its any of my fault that you cant deal with your own shit.. as if its all of a sudden my bad coz you were wrong to begin with.. i freakin pointed it out for you n yet you chose to brush it off like u rekon you're fuckin superman! n now its all of a sudden all abt the kimochi.. GET REAL!! i don't need to sit here and take ur shit, i have better things to do. like splatting it all on here n getting it out of my system!!! even this is better than listening to ur full of crap excuses!! don't moan and groan all day on ur jealousy crap. fucking get over it already!!

i need to tell the whole world I HAVE ANOTHER FREAKIN TEST AGAIN!! im starting to get really tired.. and i mean both physically n mentally. im not getting enough time to procrastinate and its killing me bit by bit. i miss the "sitting there weekly blockbuster with abbie' days. n most of all i really miss smoking the shit, once again with abbie lol, we were like almost saimese twins... but what to do.. im suppose to be a nerd now. im suppose to feel this life is oh so fulfilling.. been the fact that i get to make the most of it, each and everyday. but the thing is i don't... life is sucha repetitive piece of crap. whether or not i want to do it.. it has to happen.. whether or not i feel happy about it.. it comes towards my way. what if don't feel like waking up tmr... what if i just want to lie there like a dead person and stare at my ceiling.

from the outside, life seems so beautiful.. like a flower in full bloom, but who cares for it when its been tramped on.. who gives a fuck? i don't want to have to feel complicated for reasons of no meaning. i don't want to tangle confusion into my life..or do i? i cant figure out where i stand. what will the next 2 years do for me, where will i end up. who will be by my side and how will i make these choices. make a move or take a step back, play it nice or be just who i am.. what am i suppose to feel.. and whats making me feel hurt right now. why are my eyebrows frowning n whats making my heart race. sinking... grasping for air,

im hungry. today i bought some really expensive beef. and if one more person tells me im 'kane mochi' im going to fucking kill that person. i said i'll be less extravigant if i lived in the mountains, but im not there yet am i!! instead i have to walk through diamaru's supermarket everyday looking at oishisou food and though my brains saying no, somehow it ends up being in my basket and then eventually in my tummy... yummy yummy yummy tummy, my tummy is yummy...