i don't know..

i don't know what im suppose to feel, if im suppose to feel sad, scared, annoyed, pissed, angry, frustrated, unwanted, unneeded, outcasted.... if anything i know im lost.

i don't know where my decisions will take me, if they are even right, it they will pull through, but i know im doing it out of spite. but maybe its time to let go won't u agree? .... no, no one agrees, coz no one even reads this shit. this page where i only come vent my anger as if to show the rest of the world, and hope someone would come save me whenever i run into trouble. what am i waiting for? why am i still waiting?

as usual im the only one who even gives a shit. everyone else is carrying on with their life.. drinking away their troubles. why cant i do that? why cant i get drunk, wasted and get hit by a car? my life is so screwed........................ im disrespectful, im voilent and ungenerous........ well then just send me to hell. pls.........