trés melancholy~

its devastating things have turned out this way. im cynical and ruthless but never have i thought this is how i would be treated. to love is to blind your eyes, deaf your ears, and follow your jackass-of-a-heart and there you have it, smack bang in your face. i admit, i can be pretty cold hearted, but im sure i wasn't always this way. maybe you-n-i only deserve this much but somehow im still filled with rage when you turn a cold shoulder. so human-being of me. and i thought i was somewhat stronger than that. what a laughing stock that is. you can't make me believe you nor could i force you to give more. no fight no end we part ways. what's sad is there isn't even room for friendship anymore. what a disappointment........ sometimes im not even sure what im crying for. just that my chest tightens and my nose blocks n then this sad feeling comes over me then after awhile it gets a little better. except i think we've run into a dead-end. it's called the end.

a dosage of sarcasm per day

Hi, I am not looking at your profile and frankly, i am not one bit interested in whether you are a nice, gentle, or balding near your crutch. So why don't you leave your sadness to share with some other sad girl coz why else would you be scavenging online Mr. IM-SO-SAD.

If not coz of my pure kind heart, i would have gone ahead and replied him this no more no less. (don't laugh, i think i'm actually becoming nicer these days.) You may call me extreme but i am totally against meeting people online. Purely protocol to 21st century reality.

Except i myself, was quite sad today for a sec. I'd suddenly realized it'll be a long while till i'll get to eat green mangoes (I know, it's very sad in both sense). It also saddens me to know for a fact that the next time, if ever, I go to Thailand, not only will i be traveling as a pure tourist, but also roaming the city without 4 wheels. A city i've learned to love for its food and culture turned into detest due to airheaded crack heads who reason with no explanation. fuck me crazy but i still cant get over it. It's such irony that people who seem normal on the outside are the ones who are truly fucked up and yet people who seem kinda *ahem* weird are the real nice ones. *cough.. Soi.. cough cough* HAHA

It's so true. I'm still young & ignorant, vain & gullible.
I think its time to chuck my sixth sense out the window and call it quits.

but still, i do not believe in meeting people online fullstop.

to 'n' back

for more photos of the trip : http://picasaweb.google.com/annie.in.taipei/KoreaJejuIsland#

What seemed like a long time at the time in actual fact flew by just like that.
our brief Korea : Jeju Island break was meant to be a battery reboot trip, but instead turned into a major fatigue boost. you'd think joining a tour would make things easier coz after all, how hard is it when all you have to do is get on n off a bus when told to. easy-peasy! well try doing it that about 15 times in a day, ontop of which only takes no more than 10mins between each stop. could the island be any smaller! *smack my own head* at one point we got off to go to a orange farm, to find that oranges weren't in season so what do u know, all the oranges we saw were fake plastic oranges hung on by the farmers to CREATE a orangy farm scene for visual effects. even the ones on the ground were painted kinda brown to make it seem like they were half rotten. but none-the-less it was a pleasureable trip since we got to eat tons of fresh uni by the sea on the last day. *weeeeeeeee* thankyou to the at-first-weird-n-creepy-but-then-turned-out-to-be-very-nice-gambling-dude in our tour for telling us where to find those "sea-women" who sell fresh uni. (see picture above)

after getting the chance to use some of my drama-tv learnt broken korean, im all the more motivated to learn the language. doubling my all things korean craze. unfortunately no sight of dobboki (rice-cakes) this time, though i did see those microwave packet ones at 7/11 but its just not the same as spotting a dobboki truck by the side of the road, wok full of flaming red sauce covered rice cakes!!! we want the real deal eating it outta those polyester bowls!!!!! guess i'll just have to pray for better luck next time. (i will see u there zandra!! haha) i propose we shall all meet up there! that would be so cool!! (THATS SO COOL!!) also it would be alot cheaper than holland. since we all know that holland is a little out of reach right now. money wise that is. well, if anyones interested, let me know coz im all up for it!! haha

ps. stay safe all my friends, especially those in the kansai area what with the H1N1 hope you guys are still all alive n dandy!
much love~