trés melancholy~

its devastating things have turned out this way. im cynical and ruthless but never have i thought this is how i would be treated. to love is to blind your eyes, deaf your ears, and follow your jackass-of-a-heart and there you have it, smack bang in your face. i admit, i can be pretty cold hearted, but im sure i wasn't always this way. maybe you-n-i only deserve this much but somehow im still filled with rage when you turn a cold shoulder. so human-being of me. and i thought i was somewhat stronger than that. what a laughing stock that is. you can't make me believe you nor could i force you to give more. no fight no end we part ways. what's sad is there isn't even room for friendship anymore. what a disappointment........ sometimes im not even sure what im crying for. just that my chest tightens and my nose blocks n then this sad feeling comes over me then after awhile it gets a little better. except i think we've run into a dead-end. it's called the end.